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Judge Not! I am posting this in Hopes of helping others.

Judge Not!  I am posting this in Hopes of helping others.

Ok…I know some of you are going to scroll straight to the picture and not even read the story behind the picture and that is fine. I will tell you if you don’t read it you will not understand me at all and what I have been through to get where I am today.

The girl in the top picture is a person who has gone through a lot in her lifetime, probably more than any one person should endure. I gained and lost a substantial amount of weight. During the time that I was obese I was ridiculed by some people. I was made fun of for being “fat” and I was told on several occasions “You Have Such a Pretty Face”. Who out there has heard that line? In others words what they were trying to say was Your face is pretty but your body is not.

Fast Forward: Anyone who has lost a substantial amount of weight knows that there will be excess skin. The picture on top is me in all of my glory showing you what I have kept covered up with clothes. Yep, we can all cover up body blemishes with clothes but when we look in the mirror naked….OH MY it is a different story. My body was one that grossed people out and I totally understand that because I didn’t like looking at it myself. I personally was not happy with what I saw in the mirror. What I saw in the mirror was not who I felt that I was. The excess skin was causing many issues and as you can see was pretty saggy in the top picture. My family doctor and I decided that it was in my best interest to have it removed,

Once the decision was made I went to the best doctor and staff that a girl could ever ask for and that is Dr. Breazeale at the Breazeale Clinic in Knoxville. Dr. B and his staff have been amazing throughout my full ordeal. This has not been a easy road by no means but it is something that I would do all over again. The bottom picture is from yesterday. I am still swollen 10 weeks out and am still having some scar tissue issues due to the infection I got. My belly button in the top picture and the belly button in the bottom picture are not the same. You see that whole midsection at the top? That is 6lbs of excess skin that he removed. He repaired all of my muscles in my stomach as trauma from being an athlete as well as having babies and gaining and losing a bunch of weight caused them to be pretty much gone. Dr. B made me a new belly button as well and I no longer have that excess skin at the top. I am now proudly carrying around with me a flat belly as well as some great ab muscles.

Surgery is definitely not for everyone and I know that what I have gone through with the complications that I have had may steer people away but all of us are different. None of us ever imagined I would have had to endure what I have throughout this process but I was the lucky one. I have to also state that without the amazing and understanding staff at Dr. B’s office this would have been so much harder. Stacey, Eve, Tammy, Macey and the rest of the girls have been SUPER!!

Some people are going to say “Well You took the EASY way out by having surgery”. All I can tell you is that if you believe that you don’t know me at all. You haven’t witnessed the countless hours in the gym busting my butt to lose the weight that I lost and to get healthy. You haven’t walked a mile in my shoes and don’t know what it is like to cheat death and survive cancer not once but twice. You don’t know what it is like to about drown out in the ocean. You don’t know what it is like to have someone tell you that it makes them sick to look at you naked. Yeah you go ahead and try to walk a mile in my shoes, I guarantee you that you would kick them off and run the other direction because you may not be able to handle the road that I have traveled and honestly I would not want you to. It was my road to travel and it is my life. All that I have been through has helped mold me to the person I am today. Strong! Confident! Courageous! Loving! Compassionate! and I hope INSPIRING!

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