It isn’t so Easy but it’s Worth It

Life is a journey of many ups and downs, twist and turns and so many detours. I LOVE life even with all of the challenges that I am faced with. Life is such a precious gift, a gift that we all should be thankful for.

Instead of wallowing in self pity, self doubt and self loathing why don’t we all just smile and truly live and love?!!!

Sometimes I sit back and watch in amazement at how much beauty is all around me. I close my eyes with the sun hitting my face and take a deep breath and say “Thank you Lord for another day!” Each day is a blessing and I’m thankful that I’ve been given this life.

My life may not be all daisies and butterflies but it is my life and I’m going to live it wide open! Today and every day I am going to be THANKFUL!

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20160613_111543Nobody is Perfect NOBODY

As I sit here writing this blog post so much is going through my mind. Failing has never been an option in my life. I was always to do my best at everything and I have to admit a lot of things has come easy to me. I received nothing but love and encouragement growing up and support in all that I did.

22 weeks ago I set out on a journey with a health coach. A coach who has lived the battle of obesity and won. A coach who I immediately clicked with. I had some big goals I wanted to reach and succeed at. Goals that were very much attainable and not far fetched.

The first 16 weeks were great. I loved every bit of it. Even though I hit road blocks I pushed trough them. Even though my body stayed exhausted I still tried my best. Sadly at week 17 exhaustion had the best of me and I couldn’t figure out why I couldn’t sleep. I hadn’t slept well in many months and it was all catching up to me. Then sets in my hip killing me all the time, right where it hinges. At this point I kind of just threw my hands up and said I’m over it. Mind you I’m No Quitter but exhaustion was winning.

Finally something clicked in my brain. I had been using Thrive vitamins regularly since September 2015. Even though my joints felt great for the first time in years my restful sleep was suffering. I decided to go off of Thrive and after 6 days with Thrive out of my body I was finally sleeping!

Now that I’m rested my mind is so ready to finish my program and move on to the next step in my fitness journey. I may have taken a few steps back but my forward progress will rock. I’m NO QUITTER on myself and know my body well enough to know what I need.

I’m thankful I’m not where I was in 2010… and I am thankful I love myself enough to realize I Am Worth every ounce of self discipline and self love. I’ve got a lot of living left to do and so many more goals to hit and I will be successful. I’ve just been on a little detour but now I’m ready to be back on track. Remember detours happen but you don’t have to stay on that path. Nobody is perfect NOBODY! #Iamworthit #iamready #polarambassador #sdsambassador #t2tbff #iamabicchick #soxboxambassador #polara360

 

 

2016

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I have made a big decision and am taking a leap of faith. I’ve decided to join the Barbell Butterfly family and chosen Lynn Cofield as my personal trainer to help me reach some major goals in 2016. Sometimes we just find that person that we mesh with and that we know fully understands us and that is what I feel about Lynn. I’m currently working on my goal sheet as well as visualizing what I want on my Motivation Board or Boards. I fully believe I need to see motivation and inspiration every place that I am so I will be making more then one board. I plan on having a Motivation Board at my desk at work as well. So with that being said LET’S DO THE WORK and LET’S HIT SOME GOALS.  2016 will be The Year of Success!

Life & Death

Why is it we always wait until people are gone before we realize how important life is? Then we all go back to or lives and going back to the same ole routines of not communicating to those we say we love and care about most. I am just as guilty as the next of falling into this same way of living life.

I’m vowing to try to be better with communicating with others. Being open and honest has always been one of my virtues that can be a blessing or a curse.

Never be too busy to love deeply, laugh so hard you cry and to really and truly love life.
I’m making some changes in my life when I get back from Texas. I have to….

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WATCH ME

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I’ve really been thinking long and hard on this post and toyed with some notions in my head but I’ve promised to always be honest so here it goes.

I am here on this Earth to live my life pleasing unto God. Not pleasing unto this person or that person or this group or that group.

You see its plain and simple, I am a 48 year old grown women. I have been through more then a lot of folks and a lot less then others. I work hard, I try my best, I am up front and honest and what you see is what you get. I make my own choices and have suffered consequences because of them….but I also learned very valuable lessons.

1. God is a MUST in my life first and foremost above everything else.
2. NEVER rely on anyone else for my happiness.
3. Just because I’m divorced doesn’t mean I am damaged goods. It just means God has the perfect plan for me with or without a husband.
4. Life is too short to be petty over things that really don’t matter.
5. Realizing that I am 100% in charge of my life, my life decisions and life choices.
6. I will continue to be just me. If you want to be a piece of my life great if not great. I surely won’t dwell on it.
7. Never again will I solely depend on another human to take care of me financially. That’s all on me and I am actually learning that I am doing pretty ok. I am doing just fine taking it one step at a time.

Just because your life decisions aren’t my life decision in regards to my health, wellness, fitness, personal life (which I have none) career choices, my status symbol (whatever that is) my life is not your life to judge. Instead of putting my life under a microscope take a hard look in the mirror at yourself because when you are pointing a finger at me, you have 3 fingers pointing back at yourself.

Don’t tell me I can’t reach goals and be successful because I will have no problem looking at you straight in your eyes and saying “WATCH ME”

The bible tells me “Seek ye first the Kingdom of God”
and this is my plan.

 

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I’ve really been thinking long and hard on this post and toyed with some notions in my head but I’ve promised to always be honest so here it goes.

I am here on this Earth to live my life pleasing unto God. Not pleasing unto this person or that person or this group or that group.

You see its plain and simple, I am a 48 year old grown women. I have been through more then a lot of folks and a lot less then others. I work hard, I try my best, I am up front and honest and what you see is what you get. I make my own choices and have suffered consequences because of them….but I also learned very valuable lessons.

1. God is a MUST in my life first and foremost above everything else.
2. NEVER rely on anyone else for my happiness.
3. Just because I’m divorced doesn’t mean I am damaged goods. It just means God has the perfect plan for me with or without a husband.
4. Life is too short to be petty over things that really don’t matter.
5. Realizing that I am 100% in charge of my life, my life decisions and life choices.
6. I will continue to be just me. If you want to be a piece of my life great if not great. I surely won’t dwell on it.
7. Never again will I solely depend on another human to take care of me financially. That’s all on me and I am actually learning that I am doing pretty ok. I am doing just fine taking it one step at a time.

Just because your life decisions aren’t my life decision in regards to my health, wellness, fitness, personal life (which I have none) career choices, my status symbol (whatever that is) my life is not your life to judge. Instead of putting my life under a microscope take a hard look in the mirror at yourself because when you are pointing a finger at me, you have 3 fingers pointing back at yourself.

Don’t tell me I can’t reach goals and be successful because I will have no problem looking at you straight in your eyes and saying “WATCH ME”

The bible tells me “Seek ye first the Kingdom of God”
and this is my plan.

 

Don’t Call Me Fat!

The other day I watched the video “Dear Fat People” and it disgusted me! Fat Shaming has gone too far and I’m very upset about it. I have personally been fat shamed and the one time that it really cut me to the core was during a 5k race.

I want to say this. YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO BE FAT SHAMING ANYONE! YOU DON’T KNOW THEIR STORY AND YOU HAVEN’T TRAVELED THEIR JOURNEY. Personally for me I have NO THYROID, NONE, so my body depends on surviving on a  synthetic hormone and one little bit out of balance and the weight comes on. Other people have other diseases that hinder their weight. DON’T just assume we shove food down our throats all day long and DON’T just assume we are lazy. I can guarantee you that personally, I could run circles and out work some of you that are running your mouths. So before you speak think! Those people you are shaming could be like me, A 2 Time Cancer Survivor that fought amazing fights to be here. Who fights daily to be healthy and fit and who refuses to allow You, the Fat Shamers to control my life by your ignorance and true lack of caring.

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With that being said, “Go Get a life and make it Positive”

All of you who are fighting with me. Keep it up! You are beautiful!